power in the money

money in the power.
minute after minute.
hour after hour.

freaking a.
my mind was just blown less than a minute ago.
he's 21.
i just found out he's 21.
i've been in love with him since he was ..
16?
DAMN. no but really. wow.
he's probably the only real-life boy i could ever see myself falling in love with.
that's it, i'm back to liking him.

"the idea of him."
it's a shame i never got to really really know him.
every time we talked though, it was like ...

whyyyy can't i breathe whenever i think about you?
whyyyyy can't i speak whenever i talk about you?
or whatever.

i don't know.
all i know is, if i never get to fall in love,
i'm glad i had my epic love story with him, even if it was all in my head.

now i'm just thinking about all of our ~memories.
so sad, hahaha.

the boy in the orange shirt ftw.

***

i've noticed i've started my last few blogs talking about a boy.
maybe i'm in a romantic mood.
maybe i feel like falling for someone.
i really really don't, though.
i haven't been into anyone in months, except for the on and off love for the boy in the orange shirt.

hmmm. i'm kind of feeling like "busting the epic mission" now.
it's funny how that place used to be the epic mission.
it still kind of is.
we wouldn't go there if it wasn't for that specific reason of busting the epic mission.

the missions we bust now are for fun.
you don't get the intense rush you get from these missions when you bust the "epic mission."
in comparison to the usual missions now, the epic mission isn't all that epic anymore.

i miss that guy.
happy 21st, handsome not-so-stranger.