kay, not really.
but the blog layout templates did make me want to barf.
so i had a useless day today. i ate a bar, and then some spaghetti and meatballs and garlic bread. then i hit the gym and burned ... like almost 300 calories which really isn't much now that i think about it. but whatever. so then i came home and ate a gogurt. that's another 80 calories.
it's a start.
things to be depressed over for today:
-being fat
-not having any money
-not getting my hair done
-not having any clothes, but that's mainly because i don't want any new clothes until i lose weight
-not having a picture with the jonas brothers (not gonna lie, it bothers me)
-being a blob
btw, being a blob seriously runs in the family. basically all of my cousins on my dad's side of the family are blobs. not all of them, but most of them. they're all blob-like in some way or other.
all of my older cousins except ONE on my dad's side are blobs and/or hot tranny messes.
idk if it runs in the family, or if i'm just blaming it on that. i wasn't a blob until .. until i became one. it just happened.
it's not cute, and that's no lie.
i just want to get into a routine. work, school, gym. and get a picture with the jonas brothers. and get my effing hair done.
it's not like it's out of reach. i just have to work for it, and that's pretty hard when you've been a blob for the past 9 months. ew change that to 10 months. 9 months reminds me of pregnancy, and i am not even down for that.
oh & the fact that i'm not religious anymore.
idk. it's something i have to work on too.
i swear i was a happier kid when i still had faith in something.
the other day, my mom was like "pray for blah blah blah"
and i straight up said "uh yeah .. i don't do that anymore."
i didn't mean it in a bad way or anything, i just really don't do that anymore.
it's not a conscious decision, and it never has been.
the way i used to pray all day every day can't stop won't stop without forcing it, is the way i don't pray now. i'm not into forcing it.
i should do homework, but i'm not down. i'll go do the dishes, listen to the ting tings and go to bed.
but the blog layout templates did make me want to barf.
so i had a useless day today. i ate a bar, and then some spaghetti and meatballs and garlic bread. then i hit the gym and burned ... like almost 300 calories which really isn't much now that i think about it. but whatever. so then i came home and ate a gogurt. that's another 80 calories.
it's a start.
things to be depressed over for today:
-being fat
-not having any money
-not getting my hair done
-not having any clothes, but that's mainly because i don't want any new clothes until i lose weight
-not having a picture with the jonas brothers (not gonna lie, it bothers me)
-being a blob
btw, being a blob seriously runs in the family. basically all of my cousins on my dad's side of the family are blobs. not all of them, but most of them. they're all blob-like in some way or other.
all of my older cousins except ONE on my dad's side are blobs and/or hot tranny messes.
idk if it runs in the family, or if i'm just blaming it on that. i wasn't a blob until .. until i became one. it just happened.
it's not cute, and that's no lie.
i just want to get into a routine. work, school, gym. and get a picture with the jonas brothers. and get my effing hair done.
it's not like it's out of reach. i just have to work for it, and that's pretty hard when you've been a blob for the past 9 months. ew change that to 10 months. 9 months reminds me of pregnancy, and i am not even down for that.
oh & the fact that i'm not religious anymore.
idk. it's something i have to work on too.
i swear i was a happier kid when i still had faith in something.
the other day, my mom was like "pray for blah blah blah"
and i straight up said "uh yeah .. i don't do that anymore."
i didn't mean it in a bad way or anything, i just really don't do that anymore.
it's not a conscious decision, and it never has been.
the way i used to pray all day every day can't stop won't stop without forcing it, is the way i don't pray now. i'm not into forcing it.
i should do homework, but i'm not down. i'll go do the dishes, listen to the ting tings and go to bed.
1 comment:
hahaha. poor andrea!
i like how your family is all hot tranny messes.
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