hovering. hovering ... hovering.

troubling.
stumbling.
fumbling
over words to say that i'm leaving you.



that was already on my clipboard, so i felt like using it. hay.

ugh.

so two days ago, i said, "i wonder how long this good mood is going to last."

it ended today.
i'm looking away from reality and digging myself into a bigger hole without even realize it.
i'm peddling hard in one direction that looks so appealing, but maybe what i'm getting away from is what i'm supposed to be going toward.
in fact, it is.

i don't even know what i'm doing.
ughhhhhhhhhh.
RUDE.

roll with it. get over it.
i love the feeling of truly accepting things.
i need to remind myself of that.
i felt so happy yesterday.
tonight and tomorrow morning are going to remind me of that.

LOL at this guy on the real world. how funny. brb dying.

i'm trying to form opinions and behave like a human being.
i'm trying to function in the real world after being secluded for a year and a half.
my eyes are open, my ears are working again.

i'm glad i retained a lot of myself through the months of darkness.
people are forgiving, and i'm thankful for that.

i was going to say something else. i don't remember. oh well.

ugh i need to stop stfd'ing on joe's face. it's killing my back.
i think i've been so used to it that now that i'm out and about, my back's like "....... HUH?"

okay. brb cleaning my room and watching more real world. then gym. then shopping maybe. then practice. then .. idk yet.

then audition tomorrow morning.